Hello Loves!

Hi Guys!!!!! So lots have gone on since my last post. I have gone into an outpatient treatment center for a month for a borderline eating disorder, depression, anxiety, and self-harm. I have been discharged from that program. I have acquired a full fledged Eating Disorder. And I am currently waiting for a bed at Timberline Knolls in Lemont, IL. I am freeeeeakkkinnngggg ooooooouuutttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!! In all of this waiting for a bed and stuff, my anxiety and eating disorder and self-harm have gone out of control!!!! I dont want to mention numbers or anything because I dont want to trigger anyone but I will say I have been restricting, purging, cutting and having anxiety attacks. Because of my anxiety I have been..... over preparing... for my stay in treatment. Let's just say that I have had my clothes packed for a month now. Also, I have been having some OCD symptoms latley. I'm not sure if i actually HAVE OCD but I have some weird rituals when it comes to weighing myself. Like, I have to step on the scale with my right foot, *weigh*, step off with my left, tap the scale with the right foot to reset, put my left foot back up, *weigh*, and repeat the last weigh in. I weigh my self 3 times 3 times a day. But yeah.

So anyways, This whole situation is really freaking me out.
Thank you for reading this cause it was really scatter brained and depressing!
Love you all!!!!!
<3 Mandie <3

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